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Sep 23rd, 2008

Fear and Loneliness.

It's a quarter-to six of Tuesday evening, 23rd September.

I am drunk yet again!

I don't WANT to be drunk, but it's the only way in which I can escape the endless pain of my spinal problem.

I feel SO much guilt, in that I am not able to cook a meal for my son as he comes home from college.

Then I think, what the hell? I'M the one who has to put up with this pain, has to cope with the disablement it causes.

I'm the one who is facing surgery - God only knows when - and will have to cope with the post surgery period......

If I get drunk - as I so often DO - it's because I'm sick of the pain, sick of being lonely and REALLY sick of being sexually frustrated!

Posted by Meggi51 at 11:56 on Sep 23rd, 2008

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